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My Summer Plans [Tuesday
April 10th, 2007 at 11:15pm]
10 April 2007

Dear Friends,

About this time last year, I was making plans to head out to Myrtle Beach, SC with Campus Crusade for Christ. What a summer that was! I felt like I really learned a lot, about me, about my faith. Primarily, I learned how to rely on God. It was a very hard summer for me because I quit smoking for the third time. I finally realized that it was smoking that was holding me back from my Jesus. I decided that it was time for that to be done. I am pretty sure that for about the next month I was not a very nice person to be around. I learned that I loved to be treated like royalty. I was really taught by the guys there how I, as a woman of God and a sister in Christ, deserved to be treated and it was quite different than what I had experienced in the club scene in Denver. It really was quite the life changing summer.

It was through one of the leaders that I first heard about Campus Missions 2007 at the BEXCO Convention Center in Busan, South Korea. It is a week long (June 30th through July 6th) international conference that will train the attending students on how to come alongside existing ministries and provide support for them. Not only will it train us how to support existing ministries, we will also receive training in launching our own ministries at campuses that have not before been reached with the Good News. Thirdly, it will encourage us to grow more in our faith and to learn more about what Jesus means to us. It will be an opportunity to learn about other cultures around the globe. They are anticipating upwards of 15,000 students from across the world to be in attendance. (As of today, there are roughly 18,000 students and staff signed up to attend this conference.) If you would like to look at the website and dig around a little more, you can access their website at http://www.cm2007.net and I cannot wait to report back to you with how it impacted me!

The Korean Campus Crusade for Christ has graciously offered to cover all costs (food, housing, and most travel expenses) except for $100 which would be all I would have to pay for the conference itself. Now, the traveling expense that the Korean Campus Crusade for Christ is not going to be covering is the cost of airline tickets from Denver to South Korea. I will be traveling with a group from Denver and our anticipated cost for travel would be $1,800. Altogether, I would need to raise a total of $1,900 for traveling costs and conference fees. This is where you come in. I am hoping to be able to raise the money by June 25th at the latest.

As with my previous support letter, if you are not able to contribute financially at this time, I would greatly appreciate your prayer support as I will be traveling and learning. I would ask that you pray for the following things: 1) that God would continue to reveal Himself to me as I continue to learn about Him; 2) that God would bless the words of the speakers and leaders of the conference; 3) that I would be protected as I travel from Denver to Busan and back; and 4) that God would be softening the hearts of the people that I will be affecting for Him as a result of this conference. I am so very excited to see what God has in mind for me both during this trip, and for the rest of my life.

In Him,
Jessica D. Houwen

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Me, recently [Monday
March 26th, 2007 at 11:01pm]
Life is ho hum, but Jesus rocks so that evens things out.

I hate being single and I hate the fact that I have never been on a date. It has become especially hard recently with the amount of friends that are engaged, married, and/or parents. I feel like I am behind. Waaaay behind. And out of the loop. I find myself sitting in groupings going, I wish Person X was here and then I wouldn’t be the only single person in here. I have been trying to look on the bright side of being single, trying to be optimistic about it but…man, it seems like it has been getting harder and harder with each passing day lately. What is this frustration, pain, and anger (sometimes) supposed to teach me, God? I’m SO done now.

I love my job. I don’t know how it could get any better than this job that I have right now. Running around after children ten hours a day doesn’t count as work. The thing that makes it hard is when you get called mommy by a two year old because he’s there 12 hours a day, 5 days a week. Or when all breaks loose in a four year old’s mind because daddy left and the poor kid isn’t sure that dad is going to come back. It’s even more fun when the parents arrive later than the kid is used to because now you have a crying child who is almost one hundred percent convinced that mommy/daddy is not going to come back for them. As much as I love working in a daycare, my children will not be put in one. I see too many parents who stick their children in daycare for 12 hours a day, 5 days a week for x reason. Half the time, I just want to say, “Give me your child, I’ll love them more than you do. Go live your life as if they don’t exist, you do already.” At the same time, I know that would just be an easy way out for them and they would stand to learn nothing from their actions but their child might be in such a better place. It’s hard to love the children, think you could be a better parent than their own, and still show respect to those parents. (Understand: Not all parents fit under this category. Unfortunately, more and more are.)

This summer…I’ll be taking 16 credits; ten on campus, and six online. Spanish, English, Math, Humanities, and Psychology. (If all works out well.) In the middle of 16 credits, I will be going to South Korea for a week for a Campus Missions Conference with Campus Crusade. I’m excited to see what God has in store there.

Right now I’m listening to the CMT Crossroads with Ricky Skaggs and Bruce Hornsby. Wow. Talk about talented musicians. I don’t think my hands can move as fast. Amazing, wow. And Jessica’s musical likings just got a little more eclectic. (Okay, so I’ve liked them both but really sitting down and listening to it…yeah, like it.)

School is really going well. Apparently, taking a semester off was a wise thing to do. I am currently at 3 As and a C but that C is a 76% and can come up easily to a B…maybe even to an A…all I need is an 89.5 to get an A. It’s Spring Break right now, and do I get a day off? Nope. Working 3 days this week, touring CSU on Thursday, and doing schoolwork in the spare time that I have.

So that’s me for now. Night.

Veni Domine Iesu
Salvador Dali

The Lord’s gonna answer your prayer tonight

Be Praying [Sunday
March 4th, 2007 at 12:48am]
I have the opportunity to go to South Korea from June 30th to July 5th for a conference with Crusade. Pray with me about it. The deadline to apply is March 31st. I've sorta started the application but I have not completed it, nor submitted it. I really want to go but I'm looking at around $2500 or so to raise...maybe closer to $3500...hopefully I can go, but it's up to God and my finances.

The Lord’s gonna answer your prayer tonight

Hey look over there! It's shiny! [Tuesday
January 16th, 2007 at 11:47am]
So I figured that I'd blog again. It's been awhile and since then new stuff has happened.

I can't think of a doggone worship verse. I think an amalgamation of verses would be more suitable. Worship is faith. Worship is trusting God. Worship is loving. Worship is music, a Sunday lesson, and prayer. Worship is life. My life should be lived as one constant worship "session" of sorts. My worship includes all of the above. My worship is tithing. It's being real with God when I'm frustrated, angry, mad, sad, happy...etc...Find a verse that accommodates all of the above and you've found my verse.

I'm sitting here in the student center of Front Range Community College, waiting till my second class of the day (Academic Success) starts. I have four classes total. History, Academic Success, Biology and Psychology. It should be good. After taking a semester off, I am totally ready to go back.

I got to see a bunch of really good friends recently and I hate the fact that it's going to be a while, perhaps a long while, till I get to see them again. We need to plan a reunion every other month I think. Slightly expensive, yes. It would be worth every penny spent though.

I'm really tired of my current job but I don't think I'm going to leave it anytime soon. I keep getting sucked back into Sears...I don't know how, but somehow it has quite the hold on me. I get treated like crap then practically turn around and ask for more because I'm complacent and don't really want to leave. It has taken God's strength and my friendships there to keep me going. I'm really excited for my paid working interview tomorrow. Hopefully it goes well. (I will definitely keep y'all posted!) On the upside, I get paid Friday! This is a very good thing.

My school is a wireless hotspot. I'll have to shut off my connection during class if I end up using my computer to take notes which might be beter in the long run cos I can type faster than I can write.

It's syllabus day.

I'm tired and I'm excited at the same time. I got a free manicure today.

I'm still single for those of you who are wondering. (It seems to be a popular question when I reconnect with people.)

I just got a question from a friend of mine from elementary school. He asked me if I missed Flower Mound. I told him some days. I miss some of the people down there. However, I'm glad that I'm in Colorado. It's taken me a while to get from moving to Colorado sucked to moving to Colorado was a blessing in disguise. I realize that a lot of the oppportunities that became available to me here would not have been had I stayed in Texas. Like Ecuador. Like Myrtle Beach. Crusade in general. Or like Tracy, and Erin. Dana and Marty. Tyler, Chris, Charlie, Ryan, Leah, Melody, Kevin, and the list just pours on and on. I wonder if I would have been stuck in an ever downward spiraling cycle of self hate and overeating. I'm pretty sure I would have gone to Texas A&M...which isn't a bad idea in the least...GO AGGIES! I don't think I would have struggled with smoking. I think I would have been more sheltered though. I think a lot of things would be different. Although...the snow and lack of rain give Texas a slight edge in the category of weather/environment.

I think I'm done now.
The Lord’s gonna answer your prayer tonight

Sooo [Wednesday
November 29th, 2006 at 11:38pm]

I suppose I should blog since it's been a long time...but I have no idea what to blog about...any suggestions?

Lol...I'll come up with some sort of response to suggestions...it'll be fun!

Hey wow...I have over 1,022 views to just my blog...cool stuff...

Umm...I pierced my cartilage again...it's about an inch lower than my original piercing from April of 2004...so no blood donating for a year...

This just in: they're building a museum for the group Abba in Sweden...who cares?

Sears is pretty standard. Neither good nor bad really.

I have a working computer now...yay!

I think it's cool that my dad has a MySpace now...another way to talk to him...yay!

Stranger Than Fiction turned out to be a good movie.

Anyone else think these Lexus commercials with the big ribbon on the car are stupid? Or am I the only one...

I've dropped from a size 18 to a size 13/14 in five months. Fun, right? TOTALLY!

So...that's pretty much all I have to say about that...
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hey! [Friday
July 21st, 2006 at 2:44pm]
I'm alive...but my computer isn't...I'll be sure to write more later. It's been awesome what God has been doing with me this summer. I'm excited to get home...
The Lord’s gonna answer your prayer tonight

My Encouragement of the Week [Thursday
June 22nd, 2006 at 1:06pm]

Psalm 27 (New Living Translation)
A psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation--
so why should I be afraid?
The LORD protects me from danger--
so why should I tremble?

2 When evil people come to destroy me,
when my enemies and foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.

3 Though a mighty army surrounds me,
my heart will know no fear.
Even if they attack me,
I remain confident.

4 The one thing I ask of the LORD--
the thing I seek most--
is to live in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,
delighting in the LORD's perfections
and meditating in his Temple.

5 For he will conceal me there when troubles come;
he will hide me in his sanctuary.
He will place me out of reach on a high rock.

6 Then I will hold my head high,
above my enemies who surround me.
At his Tabernacle I will offer sacrifices with shouts of joy,
singing and praising the LORD with music.

7 Listen to my pleading, O LORD.
Be merciful and answer me!

8 My heart has heard you say, "Come and talk with me."
And my heart responds, "LORD, I am coming."

9 Do not hide yourself from me.
Do not reject your servant in anger.
You have always been my helper.
Don't leave me now; don't abandon me,
O God of my salvation!

10 Even if my father and mother abandon me,
the LORD will hold me close.

11 Teach me how to live, O LORD.
Lead me along the path of honesty,
for my enemies are waiting for me to fall.

12 Do not let me fall into their hands.
For they accuse me of things I've never done
and breathe out violence against me.

13 Yet I am confident that I will see the LORD's goodness
while I am here in the land of the living.

14 Wait patiently for the LORD.
Be brave and courageous.
Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.

That's the verse that has had the biggest impact on me so far. I was looking for it the other day because of friend of mine was really having a hard time with something that happened and the first part of that verse is what came to me to send to him. The following song seems to sum up my life really well...

These Walls- Dream Theater

This is so hard for me
To find the words to say
My thoughts are standing still

Captive inside of me
All emotions start to hide
And nothing's getting through

Watch me
I'm losing
All my instincts
Falling into darkness

Tear down these walls for me
Stop me from going under
You are the only one who knows
I'm holding back

It's not too late for me
To keep from sinking further
I'm trying to find my way out
Tear down these walls for me now

So much uncertainty
I don't like this feeling
I'm sinking like a stone

Each time I try to speak
There's a voice I'm hearing
And it changes everything

Watch me
Crawl from
The wreckage
Of my silence

Tear down these walls for me
Stop me from going under
You are the only one who knows
I'm holding back

It's not too late for me
To keep from sinking further
I'm trying to find my way out
Tear down these walls

Every time you choose to turn away
Is it worth the price you pay
Is there someone who will wait for you
One more time
One more time

Watch me
I'm losing
All my instincts
Falling into darkness

Tear down these walls for me
Stop me from going under
You are the only one who knows
I'm holding back

It's not too late for me
To keep from sinking further
I'm trying to find my way out
Tear down these walls for me now

Tear down these walls for me
It's not too late for me
Tear down these walls for me

The Lord’s gonna answer your prayer tonight

A Word from Sears [Monday
June 19th, 2006 at 1:22pm]
Day 13 of not smoking seems to be going well.

They still love me at Sears.

This community thing isn't as bad as I figured it would be. I really need to quit projecting how I think things are going to be.

I heard one of my guy friends' stories the other day and yesterday I finally told him mine...well, pieces anyway...so that's cool.

I keep getting called on stuff that I pull. People in our group seem to be observant enough to not let me get away with crap that I pull to find out how people really feel about me. Thanks guys. (I'm not good at that manipulation thing...I'm really trying to stop it though...)

So that's pretty much it.

Credit app count is 49 now.

Break is over so I'll write more later...

The Lord’s gonna answer your prayer tonight

Tropical Depression Alberto is just passing through... [Wednesday
June 14th, 2006 at 1:03pm]
Downgraded from Tropical Storm to Tropical Depression, Alberto is passing by the coast as I'm typing this...cool, huh?

Sears here loves me, probably helps that since I started working out here (last Monday) I've gotten 32 credit apps. I'm really having fun. They're sorta putting me in CAC Lead position (but without the title and the pay) because they are having me go around and encourage the other cashiers to get better at their credit numbers. I like it. I really hope that the position back home will still be open so that I can apply for it...that would be very nice...

Apparently, shit stays with you no matter where you go. I say that because I have finally figured that out. I thought that maybe going to another state would help me get through stuff, get away from stuff...so far...no good...but that might be partly me. I'm here to get closer to Jesus, to work my ass off at getting a better relationship with Him going. I know it's going to be hard and I know it's going to hurt...but something has got to give and I know it has to be me...

So...today is Day 8 of not smoking, it's the one week anniversary of tearing my cigarettes in half...it's been really hard. The first three days were okay, the next two days were hell, then I had a great day and yesterday was hell all over again. These cravings are miserable and really set me in a bad mood for no good reason. *Prayer for strength in quitting*

It's so funny how people live in the same town you live in, work (or have worked) in places that you frequented a lot and yet you don't meet them until you move 1800 miles away. Heh. Strange stuff.

Church has been interesting, we've been going to this Presbyterian church and it's been...well...boring...but there is a church that one of my coworkers has invited me to AND it has a Sunday night service so that should be really fun!!! I'm excited.

The beach is totally beautiful and I've seen soo many sharks. It's sooooooo cool!!!!!! Is it obvious that I like sharks? Anyway...the ones that I've seen are big and brown. There was one that was about ten feet away from me, while I was swimming...WHEE!!! Last Wednesday, I was chillin by the ocean, just standing it and enjoying the way it felt. I see these people pointing, so I look. About ten yards or so in front of me, I see the shark flipping around in the water, fins flailing...fun stuff...out of nowhere, this wave comes up behind him and just lifts him up so that there's this wave with a shark right in the middle of it. Man, I wish I had my camera on me at that point. That would have been the coolest picture, ya know?

So...I really love it here. I don't think I could live here. I miss the dryness of Colorado...but I miss the people there most of all...

I really miss my car too...it's not fun being carless especially when you have a hard time getting to work...

Thanks to Talon, I'm listening to a cool new (to me) band called Sinai Beach. They're a band that would be classified as something I don't normally listen too...but they're not bad...they have some cool rhythms...I haven't been able to determine the lyrics of it yet though so I can't say if those are any good.

I miss all of you back home and I'll be home soon and I'm being safe, I promise. Ack the humidity.
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INTERNET!!!!! [Sunday
June 11th, 2006 at 10:56pm]
I finally have internet. It's late and I'm tired or else I'd write more.
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A Brief Resolution [Sunday
January 8th, 2006 at 12:21am]

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In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Forget my New Year's Resolution.

Get your resolution here

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fun stuff here! [Monday
September 19th, 2005 at 6:55pm]

Click here!
(and have fun...)

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one word... [Thursday
September 15th, 2005 at 1:52pm]
Goldschlager...that shit burrrns...
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Getting Older [Tuesday
September 6th, 2005 at 3:07pm]
I'm 21 now...wow...I'm getting old...

and that's all I have to say about that...

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Great news! [Monday
August 29th, 2005 at 9:45pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I'm goin to the concert!!! (Does a victory dance) My friend Tracy might be coming too *crosses fingers* yay!

The Lord’s gonna answer your prayer tonight

question [Tuesday
June 28th, 2005 at 12:03am]
hey guys! how's it going? just wanted to say hey and that I've been busy. leave me a note asking whatever question you want and I promise to post the answer next journal entry. gotta run...nighters

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FIFA World Cup Qualifiers [Thursday
June 9th, 2005 at 1:36am]
FIFA World Cup Qualifiers:
Yes ladies and gentlemen, it is that time of the year again. Soccer season...not just any soccer season but FIFA World Cup Qualifying Games...no more friendlies...now we get into the nitty gritty games of who makes it one step further and who doesn't. Before I get too far into this, please realize that the game descriptions posted are from ones I have seen. If I haven't seen them, there will just be a score listed...if I can find one. I am rooting for both Ecuador and the USA to make it in...chances are they won't be in the same bracket if they do. I will be covering CONCACAF and CONMEBOL because they contain the teams I cheer for. Team game records will be listed in win-tie-loss format as provided on ESPN Soccernet.com. The top three teams in each category will continue to play in Germany 2006. The CONCACAF team in fourth place will have a play-off with the winning team from Asia. The CONMEBOL team in fifth place will have a play-off with the winning team from Oceania. Soccer is a passion of mine and, when not impeded by work, I watch it whenever I can. Oh yes, I am a big fan of Landon Donovan's...a highly attractive man he is. And now we continue...

CONCACAF, June 9th***

Current standings are, after 5 games:
1st- Mexico (4-1-0) with 13 points
2nd- USA (4-0-1) with 12 points
3rd- Costa Rica (2-1-2) with 7 points
4th- Guatemala (1-1-3) with 4 points

Mexico 2, Trinidad & Tobago 0

--> Panama 0, USA 3
    You want to talk about a dirty game? Take this one for instance. The United States scored there first three goals in the first half and it was war from then on. Carlos Bocanegra (# 4, 6th min) scored first off of a header; Landon Donovan (# 10, 20th min) had a nice shot into the back left corner of the goal; Brian McBride scored the third goal (# 20, 40th min) off of what seemed to be an assist by the Panamanian defender. The game had a slew of yellow cards, mostly for the US. (Due to that slew, they lost both Eddie Pope and Frankie Hejduk for their August 17th game against Trinidad & Tobago.) The fouls were nasty. The ref had lost (though it could be debatable as to whether or not he had) control quickly and began to throw cards very one-sidedly. Panama was a dirty team. They chopped, hacked, slid in cleats up, pushed, pulled, tripped, kicked, elbowed, and even punched any chance they got. (Whoever says that football is a tougher game than soccer needs to sit and watch this game and then tell me that soccer is a wussy's sport.) All-in-all, it was a nasty game but at least at the end some people maintained enough class to trade jerseys (ahem...Landon Donovan ...like I said...big fan...) with their opponents at the end of the game...though I would not have blamed them for turning around and walking off the field without saying a word. (Besides, who wants to carry around a jersey soaked with sweat anyway?)

Costa Rica 3, Guatemala 2

***There will be 3 new games on August 17th:
   Guatemala vs. Panama
   Mexico vs. Costa Rica
   USA vs. Trinidad & Tobago***

CONMEBOL, June 8th***

Current standings are, after 15 games:
1st- Argentina (9-4-2) with 31 points
2nd- Brazil (7-6-2) with 27 points
3rd- Ecuador (7-2-6) with 23 points
4th- Paraguay (6-4-5) with 22 points
5th- Colombia (5-5-5) with 20 points

--> Colombia 3, Ecuador 0

Chile 2, Venezuela 1

Paraguay 4, Bolivia 1

Argentina 3, Brazil 1

***There will be 5 new games on September 3rd
    Bolivia vs. Ecuador
    Brazil vs. Chile
    Paraguay vs. Argentina
    Uruguay vs. Colombia
    Venezuela vs. Peru***

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Yet another stolen thing from wolffeathers...heheh [Saturday
May 28th, 2005 at 12:16am]
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1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in. (This should be embarressing...)
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal, or else!
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May 23rd, 2005 at 11:24pm]
Why am I on your friends list?

Comment and tell me. Then post this in your journal.
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